As you have probably learned by now I am black. I am bored shitless so I am going to be writing to waste time. I am scheduled to go to ross merp program soon after which I am suppose to start medical school in the caribbean in May. Great, my black ass now got two reason to be discrimated against- black and a IMG (international medical graduate). if you read my blogs, you learn two things - I love God, but cynical (i know wierd) and I cuss. ...a lot
Let me start by saying life's a bitch depending on how you treat her. I just graduated from college and I got a security job to show for it...great. but a brother got to make bread(money) even if he has to shot his pride. I can't go and look for a full time job because I am going to med school soon, so I just work and wait. At least i can read a lot of books in the process. I been stuck on John Grisham book's lately. he feeds into my inner depths of wanting to be a lawyer. His books as great. I think this summer alone I probably read like 6 of his books (yes black people can read....why did i even say that...) . I remember one day during my college years (4 months ago) when I was working at walmart, how I was looking for a book in the book section and this fine ass black girl was just staring at me. I finally asked told her what's up, tryin to holla and she said this comment which I will never forget,"You read books!", I was like bitch yeah, wtf. She then tried to cover up her bluntness by saying," I mean I don't see many black man reading books". whatever. I think it was part because I was looking ruff, you know having to go to classes then work didn't do me justice. That brushed hair in the morning look not so brushed in the evening.
I know some of ya are like why go caribbean to go to medical school. Simple its the school that accepted me. I didn't have money like a lot of other students to take review classes. In truth my mom worked her butt of to give me $1,500 for kaplan, but my stupid boss thought that someone was spreading rumors about her being gay, which I can see why, your dam patner is also a professor in the same as department and ya are always sitting to dam close. but that's besides the point, I'm cool if your gay thats your business, but she thought I spread the rumor which I did not but got fired nontheless along with my brother, which was very vindictive. I went to a country school, so if you didn't work on campus you were fucked. So I could not pay rent or bills so I had no other choice but to use the money.....As you probably figured I bombed the mcat. so what did I do. I studied harder, every minute of the day when I wasn't working or in class or studyin for a test. What happened the second time you guessed it....I bombed it with a higher grenade. I have this theory that that test is a consipiracy...I am tempted to take it again and put asian in race box watch my score jump 10 points....lol. so I refuse to get another blow to my "will to succed" so here I come caribo. some my say that I just can't cut it...I say fuck you, fuck you even if you celibant. Actually, who wouldn't be scared I am not the best standardized test taker and medical school is all standardized test, but I got to believe in me, who else will.
I say give me a supportive father, not having to work, and see how i come out. But, that is excuses, and I can't live life full of excuses of my bumps in the road, I got to do like Jay Z an wipe my shoulders off. Because the truth is I didn't cut it, there are people who were worse off than me who made it into US med school. so truth be told I just didn't cut it. Bill gates said in his book, am going to paraphase "the world ain't fair, so don't expect it to be" ain't that the truth.
